Ode to the Winnipeg

 So, I am going to write here what I can't say. I wanted you to go but I always wanted you to stay. Main ni chaunda k mera kuch kehna tuhadde decisions te frq pave. I have thought about a life together  and have imagined all the bliss. but there will be differences that will come in our way. I wish k tussi v christian hunde ae v main apne fayde li soch rya. Naaaaa,. I feel though that I should have told you about Jesus. Pr onna to main khud dur aa, Tuhannu kive milava. Pray krda k tussi aape hi nede ho jao Rabb de. O Lord, I Praise your name, O god I have failed you many times. My heart yearns for her, O Lord. I feel she is the one for me. But thy will be done.


Can't say these things to you. Tuhannu nhi pta hona chaida ae sab. :p. 

@1638 Zara man nhi kr reya P3 Metro nu call laan da

@ 1640    Chhuti lelva mann krda

@ 1647    Can't concentrate on work. Sad hoya peya. Dhyaan laaiye kite

@ 1822 I feel something is lost. I miss her


I guess this just happens. You find someone you become friends, get close, and then part. this is it. It happened with Komal and then Manpreet. I had feelings for  Prakriti too after she offered me food. It was not that strong worth following. But, this is strong. I have contemplated of going to Winnipeg too. Speaking with my parents. 

@ 2108    I wish I told her to stay. God it is hurting. wow, I didn't know I liked her that much

@ 2117    I just thought I got a call from you


I didn't realize K main kinna close si tuhadde.


@2211 I don't want you to do this again. To make your life around someone else. Strong bno, independent bno. Comfort  zone cho nikle ho, you will learn something.

Apr 02

@ 2059    I miss her Hug

Apr 03

@ 1725    Whole day I miss her. Sometimes I think she is ignoring me. Let it be so, then. Can't push myself on anyone. She probably don't have time because of everything that is going around. Wish her best

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