What to be in life

This lady from 1214. She's so nice. Last time she received a package which was already torn and her parcel's items could be seen. But she was still so nice to me. I felt so sorry that It happened to her. Although it was not my fault. But she still said thanks and said its not your fault and smiled and left. What happened today was, She had a sticky slip that we stick on mailboxes . She gave that to me and I couldn't figure out Where her parcel was. She waited patiently and I looked at her sticky again. It was today's. I went in again and still couldn't find it. tried to look at places other than the designated ones. Lo and behold, I found it and gave it to her right away. She did the same again like last time, took it, smiled and said thanks,goodnight. I don't know what I want to become in life or what I will be, but in all honesty I want to be like her. No matter which post I attain or the place of my work, I want to be like this lady. She has moved my heart. God bless her. Also, there is one other tenant who thinks I open her parcels. Although sometime its just that the tape is not sticking enough. She just accuses me of tampering with her parcels by saying I think its you who did it or its your fault. I told her I received it like that but she's like "Is it, really?". I understand she's angry that someone tempered with her parcels but this is not how someone should react.

I just remembered How bad I am.  When we went to Buy the bike. A patch of roof fell on me, The guy there who asks for water just asked me how was I and I got angry on him that can't you see etc. I just saw in his eyes that he felt dejected. Everyone thinks I am some kind, peaceful guy but at that moment then and there I realized who I was once I was put under a situation. I still don't know why I was angry on him. He's such a poor soul, that guy. I am so sorry bro wherever you are. God bless you.