My Diary

Somehow I feel that Winnipeg hurts you and the reason, I think is me.  I should stop pushing myself like a BoyFriend that is not what you want I feel. A good friend is what you want, I think. Someone to stay by your side. I fail to do that many times. I don't want to give you something that hurts. All the closeness we have is bound to vanish. That is what I am afraid of. Lord, Give me strength to do right. Let me not hurt her. I don't want to let her go. I know she doesn't have same beliefs and that will be a problem in future. So, this is it, I guess. 

 So, I am going to write here what I can't say. I wanted you to go but I always wanted you to stay. Main ni chaunda k mera kuch kehna tuhadde decisions te frq pave. I have thought about a life together  and have imagined all the bliss. but there will be differences that will come in our way. I wish k tussi v christian hunde ae v main apne fayde li soch rya. Naaaaa,. I feel though that I should have told you about Jesus. Pr onna to main khud dur aa, Tuhannu kive milava. Pray krda k tussi aape hi nede ho jao Rabb de. O Lord, I Praise your name, O god I have failed you many times. My heart yearns for her, O Lord. I feel she is the one for me. But thy will be done. Can't say these things to you. Tuhannu nhi pta hona chaida ae sab. :p.  @1638 Zara man nhi kr reya P3 Metro nu call laan da @ 1640     Chhuti lelva mann krda @ 1647     Can't concentrate on work. Sad hoya peya. Dhyaan laaiye kite @ 1822 I feel something is lost. I miss her I guess this just happ...

What is life, If you don't have people to share it with.  What is a success, what is a celebration. If I was meant to be alone then why am I surrounded with people everywhere. Why I am afraid of uncertainties, why do I think before lifting a foot. Is there an answer to every question? What is a right question? Can we really believe in something that is not a lie. Why is it that, " I came here without being consulted and I leave without my consent". Why is life forced on us?? Or should I even ask why? What is right and what is wrong? Why do we have concept of these? What is morality actually.

This lady from 1214. She's so nice. Last time she received a package which was already torn and her parcel's items could be seen. But she was still so nice to me. I felt so sorry that It happened to her. Although it was not my fault. But she still said thanks and said its not your fault and smiled and left. What happened today was, She had a sticky slip that we stick on mailboxes . She gave that to me and I couldn't figure out Where her parcel was. She waited patiently and I looked at her sticky again. It was today's. I went in again and still couldn't find it. tried to look at places other than the designated ones. Lo and behold, I found it and gave it to her right away. She did the same again like last time, took it, smiled and said thanks,goodnight. I don't know what I want to become in life or what I will be, but in all honesty I want to be like her. No matter which post I attain or the place of my work, I want to be like this lady. She has moved my heart. G...