My Diary

Somehow I feel that Winnipeg hurts you and the reason, I think is me.  I should stop pushing myself like a BoyFriend that is not what you want I feel. A good friend is what you want, I think. Someone to stay by your side. I fail to do that many times. I don't want to give you something that hurts. All the closeness we have is bound to vanish. That is what I am afraid of. Lord, Give me strength to do right. Let me not hurt her. I don't want to let her go. I know she doesn't have same beliefs and that will be a problem in future. So, this is it, I guess. 

 So, I am going to write here what I can't say. I wanted you to go but I always wanted you to stay. Main ni chaunda k mera kuch kehna tuhadde decisions te frq pave. I have thought about a life together  and have imagined all the bliss. but there will be differences that will come in our way. I wish k tussi v christian hunde ae v main apne fayde li soch rya. Naaaaa,. I feel though that I should have told you about Jesus. Pr onna to main khud dur aa, Tuhannu kive milava. Pray krda k tussi aape hi nede ho jao Rabb de. O Lord, I Praise your name, O god I have failed you many times. My heart yearns for her, O Lord. I feel she is the one for me. But thy will be done. Can't say these things to you. Tuhannu nhi pta hona chaida ae sab. :p.  @1638 Zara man nhi kr reya P3 Metro nu call laan da @ 1640     Chhuti lelva mann krda @ 1647     Can't concentrate on work. Sad hoya peya. Dhyaan laaiye kite @ 1822 I feel something is lost. I miss her I guess this just happ...